Big Surrender Message
16 August, Mount Shasta
...so beautiful to surrender...
I went for a walk, several walks on the Mountain last night in the star light, watching the meteor showers, communing with The Presence. In our conversation The One tells me that everything is O.K. That doesn't mean what I thought it meant. It doesn't mean the things that are happening are without problem, void of struggle and pain. It simply means that all that is happening is happening as part of evolution and held totally in the Nurturing Presence of One so Vast in Love. I, in my humanness have had quite a time grasping an acceptance so boundlessly unconditional and all-encompassing. It means every one, every thing, all that is, all thoughts, actions, etc. are within The Presence of Love. It can only be so. No thing can be outside of that. It is the very belief that one "could be" that creates separation and all that comes with that. It can only be so. One who has a feeling of separation and does not journey to the depths, to the very core of whatever is within their feeling experience, and choose surrender, may only have an "idea" about the immensity of love and allowing holding us, all along.
It is too easy (and also not as fun and interesting) to repeat what I’ve heard -- passed down from generation to generation and simply take for granted that "the way it is" is the way I have been told it is. So far, I have found many things are not the way I have been told it is. Many things are the way they are because of mass agreement. When I say "mass agreement" I am not speaking of a "church consensus." (Pun intended...I'm being playful.) A particular reality/experience comes to be when there is "agreement" that it is.
What is the nature of "personal experience?!" Through personal experience I come to "know" directly something that otherwise remains a concept or mystery...the essence of living is discovery... I come to know something through my senses and through the screen of my perception though, is that truly "knowing"? That's another conversation.
And so, in living, being present for and with all I experience, to feel all that I feel, in surrender, without resistance, the very ecstatic nature -- that way of being, sends me deeper, on to the next moment which is this moment, to be...
So, to be in an "Enlightened state may be having as a singular focus, the expression of love and it's radiance, along with all of Love's attributes -- that focus being automatic." Enlightenment then, may be a state free of the habit of making a 'substitute reality' in place of what one is genuinely feeling and what is naturally unfolding. What I mean by 'making a substitute reality' is doing MSU (Making Stuff Up), about the 'way things are,' what another thinks or feels about us, which is what the analytical mind has automatically done so as not to be in the 'unknown.' This gives people an experience of their "beliefs" about another, about life rather than how another truly is or how life actually is. Many of us have been so covered over in "beliefs about" life, relationship, the nature of reality, etc., that what is always available in bountiful portions (in experience) has often eluded us in the past.
Almost impossible to put into words the timeless, vast, presence I/we feel when we open, truly open, all the way and be "out of control," i.e., on the other side of control. We have a responsibility, to call on that One Presence, to feel ourselves into the deepest core of a being, lovingly held. All communication is between that One and us... The "we" I speak of is anyone who resonates with that.
This time tonight was really my time to open and receive from within. This has happened while writing.
On the Homeward Journey, Here...
Matisha ~ SongofHome.com